Friday, August 16, 2013

My Tumor Is Not Gone


We traveled up to USC for my post-op MRI on Tuesday.  Unfortunately, my tumor is still there.  It is about half the size that it was before surgery so we don't know if the surgeon only cut out half or it grew back quickly.  We think the surgeon only cut out half.

My tumor from nine years ago just fell out so the surgeon did not have to try and cut anything away.  This time the tumor is still classified as a grade one, slow growing tumor but it didn't just fall out.  In the ICU, my surgeon came to me and told me he got out what he felt he could comfortably remove.  He wanted me to be able to sit up and talk to him and not disable me in any way.

The tumor is located in a very delicate area called the sella turcica, the small boney socket behind the bridge of the nose that normally houses a dangling pituitary, the master hormone control gland at the base of the brain. The tumor is covering the carotid artery, smushing my pituitary, and just below my optic nerve.  The surgeon couldn't dig around these areas without potentially killing me or debilitating me for life. The tumor is made up of diseased dura cells that have infiltrated the healthy dura cells and you can't differentiate the tumor cells from the healthy cells with the naked eye.  

Obviously this was very devastating news to us.  We go back in a week to see a radiologist oncologist to see about radiation.  This isn't a cancerous tumor but a meningioma in a very hard to get to area.  I am a rare case with very few documented meningiomas growing up out of the base of the sella pituitary region.

Our next course of action looks like it will be radiation which will most likely kill my pituitary and may make my vision worse the doctor told us.  I will keep you posted on what happens next.  In the meantime, I am going to continue running this blog as much as I can.  I have heard with radiation, one is just tired.  This blog is a good distraction for me and I love writing when I am up to it.

Continue to email me problems and asking me for advice.  I will answer when I am up to it.  I would appreciate prayers for wisdom as we search out the best therapy, for my gut and sinus infection and headaches to be healed {all the result from brain surgery}, and peace and strength from the Lord.

It is definitely a scary time for us but we continue to place our faith and hope in the Lord.  He is carrying me right now.  He has been faithful in the past, and I know He will continue to be faithful and give me His strength.  For when I am weak, He is strong.

Much love to all of my faithful and supportive readers,
Lori

Have you not known? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God,   the Creator of the ends of the earth. He does not faint or grow weary; his understanding is unsearchable. He gives power to the faint,   and to him who has no might he increases strength. Even youths shall faint and be weary,and young men shall fall exhausted; but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength;   they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary;   they shall walk and not faint.
Isaiah 40:28-31


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My heart goes out to you, Lori. I will keep you in prayer. I am so glad you have a wonderful and loving family to support you during this difficult time. And I rejoice that you want to keep blogging and helping others as you are able.

Yes, if you have the radiation therapy, tiredness during treatment is the most likely side effect. My mother is on her 4th round of cancer treatment for throat cancer. This included two separate rounds of radiation. Although in her early 70's, the treatment made her a little tired, but not horrible. I will be praying specifically for strength for you. My one word of advice is to fight only each day's battles. Take one day at a time, and don't try to fight the whole thing at once. It's just too big. But you and the Lord together can keep you moving forward.

Hugs ~ Vicki
www.chrisbeatcancer.com I know you are so very healthy and know all about natural healing.
The Lord just put this on my heart to share.
Praying for you!
Carla <><
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Gently Led · 606 weeks ago

I am so sorry to hear this, Lori.

Thank God he holds you in the palm of his hand and gives you courage and strength and hope for each day.

I thank God for your ministry to me personally, as I know many women do, not to mention your own family. Your witness through trials encourages and inspires me too. Blessed are you!
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Cynthia Swenson · 606 weeks ago

Prayers from my heart Lori! I am praying you can TRUST Him in this! It is such a battle to trust, but I am watching my daughter & grandchildren involved in abuse which is the hardest thing I've ever been through. My fears & imaginations run rampant & I find myself TERRIFIED at the possibilities of what the future might hold. I consistently "hear" the Lord telling me yes, pray & do what I am able to do to help & protect in this, but the BIGGEST thing is to trust the Lord, that it will work out for good, that He is good all the time, even when terrible things happen & we don't understand. I hope this helps a little. I'm glad you want to continue writing as your blog is a blessing to many! Love & prayers, in Jesus, Cynthia
I will be praying!
Blessings over you and your entire family.
Lori,
I will pray, pray, pray and pray some more. God does have a plan and He is with you. "I will never leave you or forsake you." Such comforting words. Your faith is strong and you have a wonderful and supportive husband and family. Let their love surround you as you take the next step. I'm amazed at your courage! You are an inspiration and a blessing.

Love, Lisa
Prayers for trusting his wisdom. Praying or you! Thank you for your ministry!!!
I always pray this and He always turns an ear towards me. It's my fave two verses in the bible.

Psalm 38:21-22
New International Version (NIV)
21 Lord, do not forsake me;
do not be far from me, my God.
22 Come quickly to help me,
my Lord and my Savior.

My bible says:"Don't leave me, Lord. Don't go away. Come quickly! Help me, O, my savior!
Sending prayers and love your way, Lori. I'm so sorry you are facing this. I admire your courage and strength.
Lifting you and your family in prayer.
Kim
I'm praying for you Lori.
Praying for you and your family! My 54 year old cousin is going through something similar, I believe. She has already had two surgeries and they cannot attempt any more, so she is currently undergoing what is called "proton therapy".
I found this internet blurb about it:

Meningiomas
These slow-growing tumors develop from the protective linings of the brain and spinal cord, which are called meninges. Meningiomas are almost always noncancerous (benign), but they can be difficult to remove because of their location. Proton radiation therapy’s precision makes it ideal for treating these tumors.

Proton radiation therapy is used for meningiomas to deliver a high dose of radiation in a few treatments. Long-term results show that proton therapy for benign meningiomas yields excellent results with minimal side effects.
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isy wiefel · 606 weeks ago

Lori,
Although I haven't seen or spoken with you for a long time. You and your family are in my thoughts. Madelyne C. also sends her love. My prayers ( Jewish ones can't hurt) are also sent your way. Love,

Isy Wiefel
Oh, Lori. I am so sorry. I will definitely be praying for you, my friend.
Praying for your healing and God's wisdom. Thanks for keeping us posted, Lori.
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Sheila Payne · 606 weeks ago

I will pray for you Lori. You are such a blessing to us ladies. I am amazed how strong your faith is and how gracious you are to ask us to keep sending you questions. Thank you for your ministry to us. I hope we will be a blessing to you at this time.
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teri stark · 606 weeks ago

my heart hurt for you as soon as I read this post- will be praying for healing and strength--peace for you and your precious family as you trust in our wonderful Savior who loves and sees us as we go through all that comes our way here on earth knowing that God is good and even better than good! All the time!
You are such a blessing to me Lori! I am so encouraged by you and your family and I thank God for you!

prayerfully,
Teri
I am praying for you Lori....healing and peace....
I am so sorry to hear this! I can't imagine how scary it must be. I'm glad you have your faith and family to give you support and comfort!
Oh Lori, I am so sorry to hear this. You are such a blessing to so many of us! God is good and miracles happen every single day. I am praying for you and your family as you continue on this journey. Take care of yourself and trust in The Great Healer!
Lori, I will be lifting you and your family up before our Almighty God. May you feel the sweet presence of The Prince of Peace as you walk through this valley. His Grace is sufficient.
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Danielle B · 606 weeks ago

Oh Lori, I'm so sorry to hear this. Ow that you are in my thoughts and prayers. I nw you like USC because your dr is there. But have you considered another hospital, like Cedars-Sinai? Or a hospital on the east coast like Kettering-Sloane (NYC)?
I am a new reader of your blog and just recently added your blog to my reader. So thankful for 'older' and wiser women like you who faithfully and generously share your wisdom and encourage other women. We'll keep you in our prayers during this hard time.

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