Sunday, January 5, 2014

My Mom's Cold Hard Rock


My parents didn't have a very good marriage while I was growing up.  My mom was never taught how to love and obey her husband.  She didn't have any good role models.  She tried to do the best she could.  She was faithful to my dad and loved her children.  Thankfully, they both always loved Jesus.

My dad worked long, hard hours to provide.  They are just so opposite in personality.  My dad was an only child and my mom was one of seven.  On Christmas morning, everyone shared favorite memories of them.  Everyone shared fun adventures with my mom, like snowboarding, trips to Coronado Island, etc.  They shared how my dad encouraged and helped with their education or health problems. {My dad was the one who made enough money for my mom to show everyone a good time!}

They have been married 61 years now.  When my sisters and I were in high school, my mom would talk about divorce.  In our ignorance, we all thought that would be great.  We could move to Santa Barbara and just have fun!

We are all so thankful it never materialized.  My mom never actually ever pursued a divorce.  She needed my dad.  Now, she calls him her rock.  I told everyone that on Christmas morning.  My dad's response was, "Yeah, cold and hard!"  We all laughed.

They didn't give up when the going was tough.  Many say it is better for parents to divorce than for children to hear their parents always quarreling.  That is not true.  It is better for children to see their parents be vow keepers, regardless of how good or bad their marriage is.

My mom really needs my dad now.  They are both almost 83 years old.  My dad takes her to all of her doctors' appointments.  He encourages her to exercise.  They hold hands and cuddle now.  My mom worries whenever my dad isn't feeling well.  She is so thankful she never left my dad.  We are all very thankful she never left my dad.  Growing old together is a lovely thing for the couple themselves, for their children, grandchildren, and even their great grandchildren!

Let thy fountain be blessed: 
and rejoice with the wife of thy youth.
Proverbs 5:18

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I am so happy for you and your family! My parents didn't ever fight. My mom didn't know how so she kept lots of little childish things held inside until a root of bitterness and resentment formed. When I was 21(1982) she announced she was divorcing my dad. I was shocked and hurt and it took me a while to forgive her. I am my father's girl and always have been. 31 years have passed and lots of healing has taken place especially for me. Mom married a wonderful man that I love dearly (but he's not my dad). Dad remarried and actually had a son when he was 56. I love his wife and my brother (but she isn't mom...I do think of him as my brother though). Life is good but I know how much better life would have been had they stayed married. I have a friend who is 30 something and her parents are getting divorced. They are actually mine and my husband's friends. They had the marriage that I held as a model. I am shocked, disappointed and sad at the loss as I work through this with their daughter who is like a niece to me. If anyone is reading this comment and you are considering taking this step (unless it's abuse/violence). Cool off and take your time it's one of the most important decisions that impacts others you will ever make. As an adult child I would say that you learn to cope but I have never gotten over the sadness. I don't cry every day anymore but when I do think of it like as i'm writing, there are tears in my eyes and hurt in my heart. Also, I know God can change any circumstance if you ask Him. We live in a disposable society, please don't dispose of your marriages. Sorry for the long comment Lori.
1 reply · active 586 weeks ago
Thank you for sharing, Susan. This is why God hates divorce. It doesn't just cause pain to the couple involved but ripples to all those around. We need to be encouraging couples to stick it out for better or for worse.
I am the woman who decided the grass was greener on the other side. After 28 years I left my husband 7 years ago. I married at barely 18 a pregnant. We had 4 children in the first 4 years. My ex husband came from a very different upbringing and I knew within a month that I did not like him. I had only known him for 4 months when we married. After having all those kids, nothing other than a high school diploma, I pretty much knew I had to try and make the best of it. I could write pages of all the ups and downs. My faith was my one constant and I held on tight to God to see me through. There is so much I could share, but will not take the time or space to do that.
I am remarried to a very kind man. Surprise though, we have had our own set of problems to deal with. We will continue to work on our marriage, but I have learned a lot in the years I've been away from the ex.
What felt like hell all those years was only making me stronger. There were a lot more pluses that I just threw away.
I can't imagine being back with him at this point, but there is definitely a part of me that knows I should have never left. I will only share this with my counselor and pastor. I will live the rest of my life with this regret.
To have put my grown children through it all was wrong of me. Bless them, they have forgiven and moved on. Just as the one who shared her story about her parents divorcing when she was grown, I 'm sure my children feel the same way. Even though they very much like my current husband.
I will stop there. Wanted to share this side of it with honesty. I think it's been Loris writing that has convicted me the most in the past year.
Any of you out there that are thinking about this path better think again.
I hold on to my belief in a all forgiving and merciful God. I made my bed so to speak and will do the best I can with it.
2 replies · active 586 weeks ago
Anonymous,
Your honesty and insights are refreshing and beneficial for others who may be thinking that divorce can cure more problems than it ultimately creates. There is no doubt that with God's forward looking perspective that the past, and its sins, remain in the past, and we can move forward into our new life in Christ, but we do carry the regrets, and can see the harm we have caused others.

One of the main reasons for Lori's blog is that she wants to shout from the rooftops the message of "win your man without a word" because of the too many lost years of marriage we had together. It is so sad to live with regrets, but even sadder if we do not learn from our sins and warn others to please not repeat them.

May the Lord bless you richly in your new marriage, and may the healing from the past continue powerfully in your life and the life of your family... including your ex spouse.
Bless you for sharing.
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Anonymous2 · 586 weeks ago

I am so thankful for your blog and posts like this that are so real. And quite frankly it's nice to know I'm not alone. I know in my head divorce is not the answer but I need these reminders when it seems easier to throw in the towel. I'm thankful for Anonymous's comment. So powerful. I'm sad for what you've gone through but your bravery to share may save marriages. Thanks Lori for sharing about your parents' marriage. It gives me hope and the strength to endure.
3 replies · active 585 weeks ago
We are called to encourage one another daily especially as the day approaches. Satan is alive and active in trying to destroy marriages which is the foundation of our society. Continually pray for God's strength which works in you mightily.
I did want to mention that even though my ex-husband still lives with much anger, hatred and revenge towards me I am able to sincerely pray for him daily. I would like to be honest with him about how I see it now, but he is not ready to hear that. I know he had a part in how the marriage was, and I sometimes wish he would be convicted of that. I think that because I think it would help him heal. I also believe if I would have been able to be the submissive wife that Lori teaches us about it could have been different. There were times that I was more like that and things were different. Then he'd do something that would really upset me and I would falter. I would go back to the unhappy, manipulative, nagging wife.
I want to be that kind of wife to my current husband. I'm not completely there, but am working hard at becoming one.
It was the sin of becoming intimately involved with my first husband that started that relationship, and the sin of leaving my husband that has brought me to my current marriage. I just wish the unmarried persons young and old could truly take hold of the fact that God has the best plan for us and it doesn't involve sinful behavior.
We do fall though, and He is always there to take us back. I do know one of the wonderful things that has come through the path I've taken is that I'm unafraid to share about God's love and mercy to anyone and everyone. I also have much more compassion, and love for those who are not making good choices. They will be in much need of His love and I want to be the person who will help them find it. I have become a person devoted to lots of daily prayer and seeding God's will in my life. I believe my children, grandchildren, family and friends all see me as a devoted Christian woman. Yes, one that's made mistakes, but is not afraid to admit to them and point to the source of healing.
I will continue to hope and pray that the day will come that I can ask for forgiveness from my children's father. As I stated he is not ready for that. Frankly I would be afraid at this point to approach him. I really don't need the forgiveness as much as I believe it would possibly help him to heal. He is a man that holds on to bad feelings towards people that he thinks wronged him, for a very long time. I saw it when we were married.
I will leave with this one statement to anyone who follows Lori. Pay attention, what she shares about marriage and parenting is TOTALLY RIGHT and according to scripture. If you want to disagree and fight against it you will figure it out eventually, but there will probably be regrets to live with.
Sincerely, One that's been there done that and will live with those regrets the rest of my life.
So beautiful! There is nothing I can add to this wonderful testimony. Thank you for sharing.
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Genevra Ower · 586 weeks ago

Speaking for my parents, they provided a secure, Christian, loving environment for their family. I'm convinced what it was their heart
's desire to be good parents. Your mother was the 5th child, born in a one bedroom house.. I don't know to this day where we all slept. My parents raised us through a serious depression and World War II. They were KIND and GENTLE Christian people. My sisters and I often talk about our happy, secure, loving childhood. Zion was a wonderful city to grow up in. We feel immensely blessed by our childhood. Genny Rooks Ower, the 4th child.

Christian people. My sisters and I often talk about our happy, secure childhood. Zion was a wonderful place to live as a child. Mother always believed that God had chosen my father for her.
10 replies · active 585 weeks ago
Thank you for your comment, Aunt Genny! Mom enjoyed her childhood too, and had some very fun times, especially loving going on the milk runs with her Dad. I am sure that grandma and grandpa desired to create a Christian family and were very faithful to going to church. It is to their credit that all their seven kids remained married. Love, Lori
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Genevra Ower · 585 weeks ago

Lori, it upset me when you wrote that your mother did not have a good role model. In fact, I resent it when you refer to my parents like that. I regard them as excellent role models. But you are right that they did not teach us to obey our husbands. They were a team, a partnership, and they worked together to raise their family in a loving, Christian home.
I meant a good role model in being a submissive, obedient wife as my purpose for this blog is. I called my mom last night and asked her if her mother ever taught her to be submissive and she laughed and said no. I never even referred to your parents in the post. Most women have no role models of submissive wives in their lives.
It certainly seems like you were referring to your mom (and aunt's) parents when you wrote:

"My mom was never taught how to love and obey her husband. She didn't have any good role models."

For someone who professes to be "Always Learning", you have a funny way of showing it.
Yes, my aunt admitted their mother did not teach or show them submission.
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Genevra Ower · 585 weeks ago

Neither did our father teach us submission. I have asked a number of my (84 year old) friends who were born in Zion and grew up in the same church and community whether their parents had taught them to obey and be submissive to their husbands, and after recovering from their surprise at the question, they basically said "No". One was married to a minister, and he told her they were partners, and would love and serve each other. You scripture references are mostly from the epistles, and the disciples were trying to establish a new church in a pagan, patriarchal society. My daily reminder to myself is, "Keep your eyes upon Jesus..." Did Jesus tell us to be submissive and obey our husbands?
You are correct that Jesus did not address the issue of marriage relationships and many other things that the rest of the New Testament teaches concerning how the church is to function. Many of the admonitions for submission are given in the context of the church and order of authority in relationships, not in the context of pagan patriarchy.

Actually, it was the Jews in Jesus days who would have been far more patriarchal than the pagans, and many of the early believers were Jewish.

But let's just look at Jesus' words ~ "Then said Jesus unto his disciples, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me. Matt. 16:24 But he that is greatest among you shall be your servant. Matt. 23:11 Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends." John 15:13

So even if I didn't teach submission, I would teach women to deny themselves, serve their husbands, and lay their lives down for the person they vowed they would love most in this world, "til death do us part" just as Jesus commanded even if their husbands didn't do it in return. Jesus speaks as having no relationship as a partnership but rather, we are to wash the feet of others. How can this not begin with our husbands? God told Adam and Eve after the fall the the man would rule over the wife and Jesus never stated otherwise.

We can't make our husbands do these things {which they are suppose to}, because we only stand in front of God and give account for our actions. Also, to believe that the apostles who walked with Jesus and learned from Him are some how incorrect in their application and teachings, or that such teaching is limited to that one early church setting, would indeed significantly change my theology, but I would then be teaching wives to be servants and to lay down their lives for their husbands and family. I am not sure that changes a whole bunch in what I teach?
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Genevra Ower · 585 weeks ago

A husband is also called to love his wife, and give himself for her. Love is the common denominator, and that is our special calling. And it does require taking on the form of a servant.
Yes, that is true but I only teach women!
"My mom was never taught how to love and obey her husband. She didn't have any good role models."

Many in grandma and grandpas era were not great at showing love to one another, at least not in any public way, and obedience or submission to grandpa was not grandma’s strength :). That does not make them bad people. They were survivors in a difficult time through handwork and perseverance.

It would not surprise me to hear the next generation say, "My parents were great role models for how to love each other, but I wish they had taught me about hard work and perseverance!" Different qualities in different generations. The hard work and perseverance model has served our generation well.
It's hard to read your post Lori. My heart hurts. I come from a family that suffered and continues to suffer. My parents are still together but there is suffering because there has never been repentance and continual abuse. I'm not speaking from jealousy. I am soo thankful that you and others can be a model for the whole family. A light in this world. My aunty came from that kind of home and helped me to see what a whole family is. Her marriage had many rough patches but she put her trust in God. Her "wholeness" has helped me in seeing my faults and I try my best to work on being a helper and loving mother. My children's home is so much different than what I came from. A miracle because of Him.
I am sorry to hear about your suffering and parents. It is hard to imagine, but if one spouse is a believer, and if he/she is staying with the abusive spouse out of love for the Lord Jesus, we must honor their belief that God's ultimate good will come from it. But hopefully their are wise counselors surrounding the spouse and upholding them in prayer.

It is so easy to give up, and so much harder to play the relationship out to see if the spouse will turn to the Lord and make things right. At least your parents are teaching you to stick with marriage and persevere! Oh that they both may find the mind and heart of Jesus.

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